HAPPY 2013 !!
Hey all readers of this blog post !
This is the FIRST blog post of 2013 ~~
That means that I've been blogging for quite some time !!
Ok.. ONE YEAR ~~
For this post, I'll be talking about the future and how we should move on !
Oh my~ I'm going to ..start schooling AGAIN....OTL..
Anyway I've sang a...rather sad song.
It is a sad song of forgetting someone and how the love for that person disappear :,<
It is common thing in life for which people you've once been close to is no longer close to you.
Some people simply grew into strangers overtime , while some had a fight or whatever that have caused them to no longer be close to one another.
In which ever case, this song speaks my heart. We see those who we were once close to, DISAPPEAR. It may be hard to accept. But sometimes, it is just not meant to be. We can try to change and prevent this from happening or save the situation. However, sometimes it should not only be a one-sided effort. The other party should also cherish the relationship between both. If one is unable to do so, they just somewhat disappear...
Therefore, I LOVE THE LYRICS.
I got to know this song from a Taiwan drama which is out YEARS AGO, 微笑 Pasta / Smiling pasta.But this song had NEVER been out of my mind, I could not forget about it.
張棟樑
北極星的眼淚
作詞：李念和
作曲：戴浪
編曲：Martin Tang
製作：柯貴民
像斷了線 消失人海裡面
我的眼終於失去 你的臉
再等一會 奢望流星會出現
願 如果真的實現 愛能不能永遠
明天 或許來不及變
但曾經走過的昨天 越來越遠
北極星的眼淚 說不出的想念
原來我們活在 兩個世界
北極星的眼淚 你哭紅的雙眼
被淋濕的諾言 淹沒在心裡面
我抬頭看著 愛不見Source : http://mojim.com/twy104350x7x12.htm
Dear readers,
you may have been hurt by/ lost someone in your life.
And you use to / may even still cry and feel sad over them.BUT ITS OVER >u< ! JUST GET OVER IT ! Voice out and get over it.
Even after hearing you and does still not feel that it is the fault of BOTH parties, and still feel that he/she is right,SCREW IT ! What shitty person is that ?It takes two hands to clap :P so its definitely both parties at fault.SO its better to get over it :D ~
You have your rights to speak up ! However if don't feel like it and feel like its wasting your time, don't :D
So..I could understand if people talk bad about me :P They need to voice out too! ( but I don't think that sharing of name and other information is very advisable if anyone wants to badmouth a person online ,after an event had happened.)
But if those who did are people I called best friends, I'll definitely be hurt and feel as though as they do not see me as a friend and from that very moment, I think I just don't see them as nice people anymore. But, THIS IS LIFE ~
You may have experienced worst but..
I'll share my experience...
YES I don't care if those who are involved gets mad!!!!
After all, this is part of my life and part of my feeling and thoughts!They just happen to be in it!
Its not like I had posted your photos or any more information. so PEACE OUT !
I had an awful day during my secondary school life.
(2 years ago...)
I had a GREAT fight (girl drama) for which I found out that some friends were vigorously backstabbing me on facebook and I confronted them and got the answer (because i just want to know if they are talking very bad about me on facebook).
I never regretted asking those who I once called best friend.
Because I want to know if it is me...I don't want to be in suspend and be in an awkward situation, and being blamed for asking/breaking the friendship , I just felt disappointed....BUT I do not want to be living in lies. I can be a hypocrite towards them...if they were not someone I called best friend at that time.
So I felt wronged when they blamed me for asking them if they were badmouthing me so obviously on facebook.I wanted to say.."B*TCH! It's so obvious! FREAKING ON FACEBOOK?!?" But on second thought...lets not worsen the situation.I'll zip up my mouth.
Anyways, this song is actually dedicated to those ( by far, in my whole life, only 1/maybe 2 person :,< ) as I was glad that we had a good time together in the past and how sad that our close friendship is not the present or the future , but the past. But, Thank you for being part of my life and I have learned from it :D
(if you happen to read it, its from the old me, to the old you. as for now, I..don't really care for you so..sorry :D )
STORY continues~
Strangely, I got over it in a day.
That very day after I confronted them, I bawled my eyes out.I had a fever afterwards.But I think about it again.THIS IS JUST LIFE AND ITS COMMON. Hence, I apologized as I was the one who had neglected them and causing them to speak ill about me (NO ONE likes to speak ill of their friend UNLESS that person is really an ASS !)
But then , I realize that I start to hide the true me ONLY towards them and the others which were in that group of the people who we hang out together.I started being FAKE. I no longer speak truthfully to them. I even feel weird smiling at them. I feel as though as being ME is WRONG (for they had also blamed me for being me-straightforward, honest and optimistic). Before talking to them , I would processed everything in my brain for at least 3 times.It was so much trouble, but was trying not to worsen the relationship of that time.
I could feel that they were talking bad about me in groups, but I no longer feel the need to confront them.
I do not want to have anymore trouble. If they want to talk bad, I'll just let them do so..It aren't the first time.
( they have the rights to do so as deep in my heart...I...know that I could not accept them and I will not try or make any effort to get close to them as that would probably just irritate them more..)
But I could proudly say that I did not speak ill about them. NOT UNTIL they did that to me...But they last for awhile as I just got sick and tired of scolding/badmouth someone to others.WHATS SO FUN ABOUT IT ? Its such a waste of my time.This situation lasted for some time.
( A year ago....)They asked me to gather and just talk it out. They asked me to speak my mind.But I somehow...could not do so...I have nothing to voice out. If I wanted to do so, I would have done it a long ago.
But at that time, no one wanted to hear me. No one wanted to hear my voice,my thoughts and my feelings.
Even at the meeting, all I did was to hear. The others said I was acting fake (I'm glad that they realize it and actually conducted a meeting to clear it) and they apologized for badmouthing me. But I guess that they do not know that I actually knew about the badmouthing. So if you any of you so happen to read this, sorry I tricked you.I know about it long ago. I acted as if I didn't know.I just don't want to have a serious meeting and go "I knew it long ago." I would probably look very evil as it is after all..not a good memory.
The meeting was over.Most of the people was happy.But I didn't...I had lots to say but those words would probably hurt and I intended to keep it in my heart for all my life...The parties that started the backstabbing...they started crying over their OWN PROBLEMS. you didn't read wrongly~ its not OUR problem. but their's.And their problem with me.WHAT CAN I SAY~ I'm happy with that current situation.
Next day, one of the neutral party came up and talked to me.Saying that I should open my heart and speak my mind and treat them all like my family...F*CK THAT.I used to treat them like a family speak my mind but what have I got? Back-stabbed. And you want me to open my heart to them?! It took me awhile.But THAT very sentence GOT ME. I decided to call those who had problems with me.I spoke.They apologized.I was so happy that I cried.At first I only called so that it would prevent me from wanting to hit them but then , Its also useful as they could not see that I cried.I was so happy.I felt that at that moment when they heard my voice,understood me and even apologized. I've already let everything go and be a past of mine. Afterwords, they (who is now my friends :D there are others who I ended up not being close with...as they..don't even treat me as a friend..I guess.) even asked me what I want them to do after they had heard my thought an feelings..this only shows how much they cared for our friendship . Till the extend of wanting to do something for it...I was melting when I heard that. But I pulled myself together and said that "I just want you to hear and the walls between us is cleared.Now, is all up to you to decide if our friendship continues or not , after hearing my thoughts and feelings ."
I cry over over happy things. I was glad to the extend that I could not express it anymore. To you guys, QP,L,YC,JY,DGreen,VN,Eu (you know the initials of your name) and whoever more,THANKS FOR HEARING ME OUT LAST YEAR and probably even the year before.Or I could have buried those feelings so deep in my heart that I could really have my heart dead by now :D ( but I'm glad you didn't expect me to get along with ST cuz I f*cking hate her from the depth of my heart a year ago ..who the f*cking hell will say and treat a friend as "that person have enough friends and doesn't need us.."That's just CRAP ok? But I don't know about the her NOW~ :P )
oh! One last thing ! True friends should be people that we like to hang out comfortably with and does not need to be fake or think about how many friends the other person have ! Also, if you had a friend for long, we should stand up for one another and try to help each other!! ok~ That's my DRAMA in Secondary school (for others which is in other country, its is about the same as high school :D)
PHEW~ finally done ! To QP, you once said to me that I should "Blog to express not impress?" oh please! I have so much to express that I could FLOOD MY BLOG! Not to mention, its not like I could change the world by expressing myself? ( ok...maybe I could be able to help people? in a way that is like.. encouraging them and stuffs? ) BUT long posts like this...KILLS ME T^T so I prefer a happier blog with photos that speaks a thousand words and some brief descriptions :D For me, I feel that I should share the HAPPINESS more then my sadness and anger! Because I don't like to really think about them...unless I am doing a blog post of letting go of the past and sadness (like this blog post OTL...) Plus I hardly get angry and sad...so I don't have much to scold and share and get over ? so yeah. eat your words *bleh :P !This is my style of blogging so don't compare it to yours :D Thanks ! no offense and peace out~ ( now, I hope that you didn't read this post but whatever~ you'll be petty if you get mad yo? Because I'm just saying the my facts :P TEEHEE)
BIG SMILE !!! YAY !!! *\^o^/*
sigh..photo uploads end after one more photo!
I'm lazy to post more photos and type more :P haha!
Remember!!! You only live you life once :P
Don't waste you time being sad~
Always believe everyone in this world is lovely and adorable in their own way :3
( even if your parents disagree with that, you have to believe in yourself ok? )
Bye ~ And thank you for reading this lengthy blog post !
Lets enjoy this year together !!!
This is the FIRST blog post of 2013 ~~
That means that I've been blogging for quite some time !!
Ok.. ONE YEAR ~~
For this post, I'll be talking about the future and how we should move on !
Oh my~ I'm going to ..start schooling AGAIN....OTL..
Anyway I've sang a...rather sad song.
It is a sad song of forgetting someone and how the love for that person disappear :,<
It is common thing in life for which people you've once been close to is no longer close to you.
Some people simply grew into strangers overtime , while some had a fight or whatever that have caused them to no longer be close to one another.
In which ever case, this song speaks my heart. We see those who we were once close to, DISAPPEAR. It may be hard to accept. But sometimes, it is just not meant to be. We can try to change and prevent this from happening or save the situation. However, sometimes it should not only be a one-sided effort. The other party should also cherish the relationship between both. If one is unable to do so, they just somewhat disappear...
Therefore, I LOVE THE LYRICS.
I got to know this song from a Taiwan drama which is out YEARS AGO, 微笑 Pasta / Smiling pasta.But this song had NEVER been out of my mind, I could not forget about it.
張棟樑
北極星的眼淚
作詞：李念和
作曲：戴浪
編曲：Martin Tang
製作：柯貴民
像斷了線 消失人海裡面
我的眼終於失去 你的臉
再等一會 奢望流星會出現
願 如果真的實現 愛能不能永遠
明天 或許來不及變
但曾經走過的昨天 越來越遠
北極星的眼淚 說不出的想念
原來我們活在 兩個世界
北極星的眼淚 你哭紅的雙眼
被淋濕的諾言 淹沒在心裡面
我抬頭看著 愛不見
Dear readers,
you may have been hurt by/ lost someone in your life.
And you use to / may even still cry and feel sad over them.BUT ITS OVER >u< ! JUST GET OVER IT ! Voice out and get over it.
Even after hearing you and does still not feel that it is the fault of BOTH parties, and still feel that he/she is right,SCREW IT ! What shitty person is that ?It takes two hands to clap :P so its definitely both parties at fault.SO its better to get over it :D ~
You have your rights to speak up ! However if don't feel like it and feel like its wasting your time, don't :D
So..I could understand if people talk bad about me :P They need to voice out too! ( but I don't think that sharing of name and other information is very advisable if anyone wants to badmouth a person online ,after an event had happened.)
But if those who did are people I called best friends, I'll definitely be hurt and feel as though as they do not see me as a friend and from that very moment, I think I just don't see them as nice people anymore. But, THIS IS LIFE ~
You may have experienced worst but..
I'll share my experience...
YES I don't care if those who are involved gets mad!!!!
After all, this is part of my life and part of my feeling and thoughts!They just happen to be in it!
Its not like I had posted your photos or any more information. so PEACE OUT !
I had an awful day during my secondary school life.
(2 years ago...)
I had a GREAT fight (girl drama) for which I found out that some friends were vigorously backstabbing me on facebook and I confronted them and got the answer (because i just want to know if they are talking very bad about me on facebook).
I never regretted asking those who I once called best friend.
Because I want to know if it is me...I don't want to be in suspend and be in an awkward situation, and being blamed for asking/breaking the friendship , I just felt disappointed....BUT I do not want to be living in lies.
So I felt wronged when they blamed me for asking them if they were badmouthing me so obviously on facebook.I wanted to say.."B*TCH! It's so obvious! FREAKING ON FACEBOOK?!?" But on second thought...lets not worsen the situation.I'll zip up my mouth.
Anyways, this song is actually dedicated to those ( by far, in my whole life, only 1/maybe 2 person :,< ) as I was glad that we had a good time together in the past and how sad that our close friendship is not the present or the future , but the past. But, Thank you for being part of my life and I have learned from it :D
(if you happen to read it, its from the old me, to the old you. as for now, I..don't really care for you so..sorry :D )
STORY continues~
Strangely, I got over it in a day.
That very day after I confronted them, I bawled my eyes out.I had a fever afterwards.But I think about it again.THIS IS JUST LIFE AND ITS COMMON. Hence, I apologized as I was the one who had neglected them and causing them to speak ill about me (NO ONE likes to speak ill of their friend UNLESS that person is really an ASS !)
But then , I realize that I start to hide the true me ONLY towards them and the others which were in that group of the people who we hang out together.I started being FAKE. I no longer speak truthfully to them. I even feel weird smiling at them. I feel as though as being ME is WRONG (for they had also blamed me for being me-straightforward, honest and optimistic). Before talking to them , I would processed everything in my brain for at least 3 times.It was so much trouble, but was trying not to worsen the relationship of that time.
I could feel that they were talking bad about me in groups, but I no longer feel the need to confront them.
I do not want to have anymore trouble. If they want to talk bad, I'll just let them do so..It aren't the first time.
( they have the rights to do so as deep in my heart...I...know that I could not accept them and I will not try or make any effort to get close to them as that would probably just irritate them more..)
But I could proudly say that I did not speak ill about them. NOT UNTIL they did that to me...But they last for awhile as I just got sick and tired of scolding/badmouth someone to others.WHATS SO FUN ABOUT IT ? Its such a waste of my time.This situation lasted for some time.
( A year ago....)They asked me to gather and just talk it out. They asked me to speak my mind.But I somehow...could not do so...I have nothing to voice out. If I wanted to do so, I would have done it a long ago.
But at that time, no one wanted to hear me. No one wanted to hear my voice,my thoughts and my feelings.
Even at the meeting, all I did was to hear. The others said I was acting fake (I'm glad that they realize it and actually conducted a meeting to clear it) and they apologized for badmouthing me. But I guess that they do not know that I actually knew about the badmouthing. So if you any of you so happen to read this, sorry I tricked you.I know about it long ago. I acted as if I didn't know.I just don't want to have a serious meeting and go "I knew it long ago." I would probably look very evil as it is after all..not a good memory.
The meeting was over.Most of the people was happy.But I didn't...I had lots to say but those words would probably hurt and I intended to keep it in my heart for all my life...The parties that started the backstabbing...they started crying over their OWN PROBLEMS. you didn't read wrongly~ its not OUR problem. but their's.And their problem with me.WHAT CAN I SAY~ I'm happy with that current situation.
Next day, one of the neutral party came up and talked to me.Saying that I should open my heart and speak my mind and treat them all like my family...F*CK THAT.I used to treat them like a family speak my mind but what have I got? Back-stabbed. And you want me to open my heart to them?! It took me awhile.But THAT very sentence GOT ME. I decided to call those who had problems with me.I spoke.They apologized.I was so happy that I cried.At first I only called so that it would prevent me from wanting to hit them but then , Its also useful as they could not see that I cried.I was so happy.I felt that at that moment when they heard my voice,understood me and even apologized. I've already let everything go and be a past of mine. Afterwords, they (who is now my friends :D there are others who I ended up not being close with...as they..don't even treat me as a friend..I guess.) even asked me what I want them to do after they had heard my thought an feelings..this only shows how much they cared for our friendship . Till the extend of wanting to do something for it...I was melting when I heard that. But I pulled myself together and said that "I just want you to hear and the walls between us is cleared.Now, is all up to you to decide if our friendship continues or not , after hearing my thoughts and feelings ."
I cry over over happy things. I was glad to the extend that I could not express it anymore. To you guys, QP,L,YC,JY,DGreen,VN,Eu (you know the initials of your name) and whoever more,THANKS FOR HEARING ME OUT LAST YEAR and probably even the year before.Or I could have buried those feelings so deep in my heart that I could really have my heart dead by now :D ( but I'm glad you didn't expect me to get along with ST cuz I f*cking hate her from the depth of my heart a year ago ..who the f*cking hell will say and treat a friend as "that person have enough friends and doesn't need us.."That's just CRAP ok? But I don't know about the her NOW~ :P )
oh! One last thing ! True friends should be people that we like to hang out comfortably with and does not need to be fake or think about how many friends the other person have ! Also, if you had a friend for long, we should stand up for one another and try to help each other!! ok~ That's my DRAMA in Secondary school (for others which is in other country, its is about the same as high school :D)
PHEW~ finally done ! To QP, you once said to me that I should "Blog to express not impress?" oh please! I have so much to express that I could FLOOD MY BLOG! Not to mention, its not like I could change the world by expressing myself? ( ok...maybe I could be able to help people? in a way that is like.. encouraging them and stuffs? ) BUT long posts like this...KILLS ME T^T so I prefer a happier blog with photos that speaks a thousand words and some brief descriptions :D For me, I feel that I should share the HAPPINESS more then my sadness and anger! Because I don't like to really think about them...unless I am doing a blog post of letting go of the past and sadness (like this blog post OTL...) Plus I hardly get angry and sad...so I don't have much to scold and share and get over ? so yeah. eat your words *bleh :P !This is my style of blogging so don't compare it to yours :D Thanks ! no offense and peace out~ ( now, I hope that you didn't read this post but whatever~ you'll be petty if you get mad yo? Because I'm just saying the my facts :P TEEHEE)
A photo taken on the last day of 2012 ~ So fun and comfortable ~
By the way, I'm on a lorry !! OMG COOL !! WINDY~~
By the way, I'm on a lorry !! OMG COOL !! WINDY~~
sigh..photo uploads end after one more photo!
I'm lazy to post more photos and type more :P haha!
Don't waste you time being sad~
Always believe everyone in this world is lovely and adorable in their own way :3
( even if your parents disagree with that, you have to believe in yourself ok? )
Bye ~ And thank you for reading this lengthy blog post !
Lets enjoy this year together !!!
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